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Photo Credit: Paul B. Goode - Dancemeditation at the Metropolitan Building

As Jamie asks our souls each Wednesday to dare for our deepest wishes, so too do I ask you…. What Luxury do you wish for?

“You can be a maker of magic and a tender of wishes. It’s easy. Answer the wish prompt above on your blog and then add a direct link to your post in the box below. Support wishes by visiting other participants, leaving a comment saying “As (insert name) wishes for her/himself, so I wish for her/him also.” It’s that simple. There is great power in wishing together.”

At first my brain went to a big plush bed, big, tall mahogany sleigh bed with a curled over headboard and footboard, crisp white sheets and a thick comfy mattress….  Then my brain turned toward my dream bathroom (don’t we all have one?)  Tall ceiling, almost the feel of a solarium or atrium, high windows, a big round window with maybe some stained glass?  A large clawfooted tub… and yes, my dream bathroom would have a bidet

But then I remembered my current situation and I realized that the biggest luxury I wish for is freedom…

I simply wish for the luxury to do what I wish, when I wish… and all that encompasses.

Natya Angeli" performance... definitely the hardest thing I've ever learned.

I sometimes wonder if the picture I have of Jamie, sitting knees tucked up against the desk, cup of tea in her hands, looking thoughtfully over the cup as she proofs her blog before she hits ‘publish’, little glowing-red horns sticking up out of her hair is a fair or adequate picture?  I swear sometimes that woman is out to make our brains spasmodically flop around like landed-fish.

This is all rather unfair, I know what Jamie is.  Outside of amazing, she is also a catalyst.  I recognize my own.  Those people who ask just the right questions.  The questions that have just the right amount of barbs and point-i-ness to get at the core of who you really are, instead of who you are trying to be.  Who I am, rather than who I am trying to be.  But in a gentle loving way…

So, today, on my most favorite-est of days “Wednesday” Jamie Ridler, chanteuse and weaver of creative magic asks us “What do you wish to learn?”  Isn’t she impishly clever?  I mean, how simple a question is that on the surface?  Now…wait for it…waiiiiit for it…. yup, there, got you too didn’t it?  Yup.  Are you like me?  Do you wish to learn underwater-basket-weaving, while saving manatee while having a personal Klingon coaching session?  My kidding only goes so far, but this is close.

So? What do I wish to learn? 

I wish to learn the patience required to learn one thing (either mostly or completely) prior to moving on to the next thing I want to learn.  I think this hearkens back to last week’s wish for “Completion.”

But yes, in the midst of all I wish to learn, I wish to learn to be a more diligent, focused, dare I say “Single-minded” student when it comes to learning the things I set before myself.

Wow… see, Jamie does it again.  No therapist required.  Just actually sitting with my brain long enough to allow the answer to fall out on its own.

If you too would like to benefit from or simply witness the wild-wooly-world of Wishcasting Wednesday, please check out Jamie’s site at www.jamieridlerstudios.ca  – alternately you can pester her and many other fine creative-types on Twitter at @Starshyne

I’ve decided to upload these once a week because the act of a project and an upload every day seems to overwhelm me.  And so I learn about overload (this is a joke to anyone who knows me, but I am making an attempt to learn the lesson.)

The slideshow here represents days 1 through 8, please click the links to see Days 1 and 2.  The only work I haven’t published yet are days 3, 4, 5, 7 and 8.

Just for reference, I am trying not to be completely militant with myself. I allowed my “Full Moon Dream Board” to be my “day 6″ project… because it was, and then some. The Girl sitting atop the big red ball came from a vision while I was doing some Root Chakra clearing and energizing work; hence the name, “Root Chakra.” Some of the others may or may not be used in the “Eyes & Hands” project that is rolling around inside my noodle.

The one thing I can say for this project is that I am beginning to see that just as with dancing or writing, drawing requires that we ‘exercise’ (and I do mean “Get it out”) a certain amount of frustrated, or perhaps just excessive energy prior to anything really decent coming out… these are still me in the process of ‘exercising’ the penned up ten year-old with too much Pencil Color and Crayon energy

My second time posting a dream board, but my first time manually cutting and pasting…  There is another blog upcoming as a direct result of this project, but that’s for later.

This was not where this board was intended to go… but finally, here she is; intuited incarnation.

At the bottom is the sun rising, and the poem says:

Energize

Giving Thanks

Remembrances

movestrong

energize your morning

find your center

Take the Time to Shine

CREATE HAPPINESS EVERYDAY

Study

Uncover

True Self

Seeing is

Believing SEEK

THE TRUTH Live

YouCan’t Fake

Answered Prayers

Other Full Moon Dream Boards:

Jamie Ridler asks, “So under this particular moon, at this particular time, what are you inviting into your life? How will you shine your own light in the world? What are you dreaming of?”

Shelly and the Sunsetting over the Mississippi

In my world… a world that contains creativity and love and support there is a magical place called “Jamie Ridler Studios” and each day it is worth scouring her site for something  inspirational, or just good food for thought.  Every Wednesday, Jamie prompts us to reach into that deepest part of ourselves, and pull jewels out of our souls.  It is a practice called “Wishcasting Wednesday” and if you are reading, you are participating.

Today Jamie asks “What do you wish to begin?”  I laugh and ask, “What don’t I wish to begin.”

I’m a strange bird, it’s been affirmed, accepted, I’ve grown used to and comfortable with my mottle-colored, irregularly shaped feathers.  I have a lot of Hawk energy in me by nature.  The ability to look out and see what’s on the horizon, the energy to create, to start, but it’s always so difficult for me to finish.  I’ve often thought my dream job would be as a consultant for start-ups.

Today I wish to begin finishing.  Today I wish to begin with the completion of all of those tasks, projects, assignments, books, etc I’ve been sitting on since I lost my mind at some point almost four years ago.  I got caught up in myself… I kept looking to the future and beginning things without thought for how much I was taking on.

Today I wish to begin living now, here, as I am, not as I see the future, just working toward the future that I see instead of trying to be immediately in it without doing the work to get there.

I wish to begin clearing out my life of those projects which no longer serve me or for which there is no real need for my attention, that which I can give to others if it is important enough for the world.

I wish to begin to kick the mental dust off of my life from those long ago dreams, attached with bell-cords so that every thought of them brings me to a halt of despair at another in-completion.

I wish to begin the emptying of my life so that I can bring forth the life that sings to me under the surface of the clutter.  I can hear her, her soft sweet voice, not a siren, not a banshee, nor a harpy, but rather she is a lightly-winged faerie, who also wishes for me to begin… the beginning.

Now, what is it that YOU wish to begin?

Brilliant! Whoa. HUGE – right?

“lemme splain. No, dere is too’mush, lemme sum up.” Inigo Montoya

Every Wednesday, Jamie Ridler invites each of us to participate in the wonderfully supported  madness known as “Wishcasting Wednesday.”  To join the fun, click the above link, add your name, then as Jamie so exquisitely says, “Support wishes by visiting other participants, leaving a comment saying “As (insert name) wishes for her/himself, so I wish for her/him also.” It’s that simple. There is great power in wishing together.”

Today we are asked “What door do you wish to open?”

My immediate thought is, “I don’t know.”  I’ve been mulling it over all morning and I’m still not sure.  This is kind of a big question.  I’ve been all about “Me” lately (just got a lot of funk to clear up/out) and the potential for this wish is quite literally huge… as are most weeks, but today I guess I feel my sense of self mingled with all of those around me in cascading ripples that wrap from one end of the Earth to the other.

So, maybe the wish for today is, “I wish to open the door between myself and my fellow humans.”  I’m sure that sounds kitsch, but at this moment, in a somewhat vulnerable state, it feels what I need/desire most. 

"Turn the Key, Door Opens" ~Mercan Dede

I wish to open the door between us so that I am able to do as I am constantly saying and “help people walk between worlds.”

This is what I do.  I do actually own the title “Dervish.”

Dervish comes from the root word in Persian is “Dar” meaning “door” or “to open.”  A Dervish is one who opens the door and assists others in passing through, or between.

I wish to open the door to the people of the world who wish to see me, and me to see them.

Each week Jamie Ridler (@Starshyne) asks us a very important question.  At first it may not seem important, but once the question gets a little breath in it, well…the results are often staggering and frequently lead many of us answering the question into realms of our hearts and souls we’ve either forgotten about or never knew existed.  And sometimes the question is so right in line with what we’re going through at that exact moment that little doubt is left as to Jamie’s ‘in-tune-ed-ness’ to our little Universe.  Today feels like the latter.

This is very interesting, because for the last few weeks I’ve been painfully

Spring sunset from our yard in Sunshine, Louisiana

remembering all of these amazing things I Used to know.  I say painfully because, such valuable lessons deserve not only to be remembered, but practiced-implemented-each and every day… and somewhere along the line, I let the frenetic energies of the world around me take over and dictate not only how I would spend my time, but how I would think and the things I would do. 

I think people do not know (because I do not often say it) that my favorite meditations are often my power animal meditations.  I had forgotten how amazing it is to not just communicate with but to actually Travel, Explore, FEEL and Revel in the messages and lives of the animals with whom I travel.  I love them, and they have taught me so much.  I wish to remember the sense of peace, power, strength and deep sense of self I have whenever I journey with the animals in meditation, and not just speaking to them from this realm.

I wish to remember that I am a power manifestor.  That because of the amazing gifts I was given when my human form hit this Earth, I have the ability to *FEEL*the sparkling, kinetic energies around me, around others, that I can control these sensations and bring them into complete and total accord with the current moment and create something new and vibrant that wasn’t present moments ago.  THIS IS A GIFT…and I want to remember that not everyone is so fortunate and that I should use it with gratitude and awareness.

I wish to remember the feel of dirt under my fingernails and the sweaty exultation at ripping up the weeds that have taken over my garden.

Weird Fungus

I wish to remember all of the stories I have ever known… because many of them are unique in the world, and sometimes mine were the only ears to have heard them.

I wish to remember to laugh at myself when the world seems dire – my spirit is made of laughter, and I wish to remember.

I wish to remember I come from a long line of creative, intelligent, amazing people…and this is not only my lineage, but also a seedling available to me whenever I choose to draw on it.

I wish to remember the several pictures I’ve drawn in my life that were good, not great, but good and how much I enjoyed spending the time and focus to create them…and that I DID THAT….

I wish to remember how special it is just to sit and drink the world in without worrying about what needs to happen next.

I wish to remember that music lives in my soul and sometimes I create music that needs to be let out.  I wish to remember that a little effort on my part often goes a helluva long way.

I wish to remember all of the exceedingly useful, powerful tools and lessons I’ve been given, shown, taught and experienced throughout my life, so that I can fulfill my mission on this planet to the best of my abilities.

Eggplant flower from my garden

Each Wednesday, Jamie Ridler prompts us with a question for our wishes in an event called “Wishcasting Wednesday.”  Last week was Jamie’s grand unveiling of her new website and she asked us to share our wishes for her website!  It’s a truly spectacular site, with all sorts of goodies and good stuff for the in-depth creative types or even if you don’t think you’re creative and just like to doodle on the edge of your page during meetings or class   It’s all in there.

I was splendiferously honored to win a *door* prize of a podcast series called “Your Creative Spark” which was something I’d been eyeballing already!  I couldn’t believe my fortune, but I sure am grateful.  I haven’t gotten but an hour into it but I can’t wait to get into the rest.  This place really has been so much more than inspiration for my soul, more like the FAO Schwartz of my creative world  one gigantic playground with lots of support and supportive people.  It’s awesome.

So today, Jamie asks us, what do wish to Invite In?  No holds barred, I wish to invite in *ME*.  I wish to invite into my life my true self, not the good girl who always went along with what was needed, or what would get me praise or attention, but me.  I wish to invite in the clarity and peace of mind that comes from knowing exactly who I am when I put my feet on the floor every morning.  I don’t know how many times in my life I’ve done this…or will do this again, the re-inventing of me, but I wish to invite in Me, My Shadow & I.

I wish to invite in the knowledge of all the nooks and crannies of my psyche, the knowledge of what truly makes me sing, the knowledge of my heart’s true desire…every day.  I wish to invite in the knowledge of just exactly what it is that I want…and the knowledge to understand when that changes.

I wish to invite in *me.*