I have been in and out of the Wishcasting for the last couple of months. It was not intentional… things just happen. Today Jamie’s prompt (deceptively simple as ever) is “What is your winter wish?”
I read the prompt, an odd thing occurred. I decided I wanted to participate. I opened a new post and typed the header. Then I sat, looked at the prompt and went off to do other work. My world (almost imperceptibly) began to shift. A creeping awareness overtook my body. There was no great ‘Aha! That’s it!’ just a gentle knowing. A peaceful contemplation that began with a tingling in my head, which then spread to my spine and across my lower back, finally settling in my legs and arms; sensory knowing.
I kept coming back to the prompt. Each time I re-read “What is your winter wish?” I received images, feelings, emotions… no words. This odd thing of which I speak… it is not nameable… it is not foreign… it is though, a space, a place I find myself maybe once or twice a year, if I am fortunate.
I find myself open. The feeling inside me is ‘OPEN’, ‘VAST’, empty like a large white hilly field covered with snow before the geese find it. Pristine. I’m not sure why, but words have failed me of late. I cannot grasp a word, just the feeling of it. I cannot speak, but instead mime and give descriptions of what I would like the words to be. I know these things all sound disjointed, and even unrelated, but they are not.
When I reach inside myself and feel around for the light switch, I realize it is already on, but there is so much to see, feel, experience, I need a spot light to shine deep into the corners and crevices.
My winter wish… is simply to be in this oddly warm, ever unfolding state of the vast, open, expanses of my interior. I wish to experience each little thing that comes up, like a gardener or a zoo keeper tending each flower or bird that resides within their care. I wish to witness all that is within me, all that I feel within me. I resist the urge to ‘dump’ all of this out for examination and judgement of each piece. Instead, I witness and in the dreamy way our bodies perceive, I give myself over to life.
Sunshine Sneaux December 08
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YES! I so get what you are saying here. And, it is hard to put into words. I think I feel as if it is Spirit’s Grace and it’s a clear moment of awareness.
Yes! I understand.
As Shamsi sow gracefully wishes for herself, so I lovingly and with intention wish for her also.
I hope to sit with you in the Light more in the upcoming year.
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so do I wish for her as well. May you always be content in being and appreciate the moment and what it brings for what it is…..that’s life!
It is wonderful to hear your voice, sweet, dancing friend!
Winter IS the time for this sort of hibernation and gestation. Take care of yourself.
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I blissfully wish for her also.
You’re a dancer. You move through life. Words can be a dance. A dance can be a thousand words and then some. It all makes sense to me.
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I mindfully and movingly wish for her also.
shamsi…this is so extremely beautiful! i really really needed to read this! thank you for sharing. i guess the words finally found you huh? (((((hugs)))))
btw, the line “When I reach inside myself and feel around for the light switch, I realize it is already on” is one of the most profoundly beautiful lines i have ever read! i’m for cereal girl! that was awesome! you rock!
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
As Shamsi wishes for her self, so I wish for her as well.
May your vessel remain perpetually open and receive everlasting flowing refreshment.
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
Oh hon…I cannot tel you how much what you said rang true in my soul. When I read the prompt this morning..is burst out in tears…at that moment I was clueless as to why..but it came to me that open feeling..you described it with beautiful honesty!! Thank you hon and may this stay with you! Hugs to you hon, Sarah
Gorgeous wish! Like coming home to yourself. Home for the Holidays. As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I wish for her also!
Hi there Shamsi, good to see you back here.. your post really speaks to me today, I have been where you are. As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I wish for her also, may it be so! May you find joy and peace in just being as you are in this moment.
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
This is absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for this post. Very inspiring. I’ve been feeling similarly, and thinking about the fact that this time is called Advent by some… the time of anticipation leading up to the return of the Light at the winter solstice. I loved advent calendars as a kid, and have been thinking of them… a new door opening every day, a new treasure inside of it. Love the picture, and the mental image of your vast, pristine interior expanses… makes me feel excited, the way I would feel walking through the woods just after the first snow… all that beauty and mystery.
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I wish for her tambien! xoxox
Sweetiepie, sounds to me like you’ve experience being completely and totally in the Now. Enjoy your wintertime, sweet Shamsi
xoxo
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
Sometimes an awareness arrives on little cat feet…and we just know.
Oddly this week I didn’t participate in WW – just sometimes no answer comes.